Saturday, March 21, 2015
I tire of the "daily grind".
Today, instead of progressing I have regressed even further. Maybe I am trying to get it out of my system so that I would get bored and never do it again. I hope that is the case. Everything fictional is real and everything real has become fictional. I am hiding from what scares me though it doesn't make sense. As of right now, nothing seems to make sense and I hate it. TV shows and movies have become my first priority. Getting out of the house is also a top priority on the list. I would love to get out and do something but where do I begin? I hate myself and I hate my life. I hate having these thoughts and I hate the compulsions even more. What happened between now and Wednesday? I can say that I need help and while I do, I might as well just give up and give in.