I am in a situation that is quite scary. I would have to pray over and over to be saved. It isn't based on exaggeration. It is based on reality. What if I am not truly saved? What if I am really lost? My soul is riding on this. Would I end up in Hell because of my lack of faith? Have I truly repented? I have these questions that I feel like I need answering. I need help and I need answers.
Sunday, February 7, 2016
Right now, I am feeling better. I guess it is because of exercise, which is actually quite fun. The exercise was Pilates. It isn't quite easy. I have made plans to exercise. I realize that I need to make a promise to myself that I have to push myself to exercise. I really even bodybuilders feel the same way. That is what I have read. I realize that everyday, every time. It has to do with the thoughts disappearing, which is even better.
Saturday, February 6, 2016
Today has been pretty good. I have been tired for much of the past two days that is why. Right now, I am watching a movie and I get nervous at watching said movies. I didn't have the issues that I had now. I wondered if hating these thoughts are making things worse. I have struggled with having these thoughts. I realize that viewing them in a negative light often make things worse. I feel a little bit better as of late. Right now, I just have a hard time accepting the fact that I have obsessive thoughts. Now I wish I didn't see them in a negative light.