Monday, February 8, 2016

Praying for salvation over and over

I am in a situation that is quite scary.  I would have to pray over and over to be saved.  It isn't based on exaggeration.  It is based on reality.  What if I am not truly saved?  What if I am really lost?  My soul is riding on this.  Would I end up in Hell because of my lack of faith?  Have I truly repented? I have these questions that I feel like I need answering.  I need help and I need answers.

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Pilates and plans to exercise

Right now, I am feeling better.  I guess it is because of exercise, which is actually quite fun.  The exercise was Pilates.  It isn't quite easy.  I have made plans to exercise.  I realize that I need to make a promise to myself that I have to push myself to exercise.  I really even bodybuilders feel the same way.  That is what I have read.  I realize that everyday, every time.  It has to do with the thoughts disappearing, which is even better.

Saturday, February 6, 2016

How to truly see them

Today has been pretty good.  I have been tired for much of the past two days that is why.  Right now, I am watching a movie and I get nervous at watching said movies.  I didn't have the issues that I had now.  I wondered if hating these thoughts are making things worse.  I have struggled with having these thoughts.  I realize that viewing them in a negative light often make things worse.  I feel a little bit better as of late.  Right now, I just have a hard time accepting the fact that I have obsessive thoughts.  Now I wish I didn't see them in a negative light.

Friday, February 5, 2016

Current music...I guess it is more current..

 "Cake by the Ocean" by DNCE

 "My House" by Flo Rida

 "Hello" by Adele

 "Chandelier" by Sia

 "Diamonds" by Rihanna

Thursday, February 4, 2016