How I am doing today?

Today, I finally unleashed.  I am doing well today.  My hope is that I will continue to do well.  I pray that I will continue to do well.  Life is too short to be wasting time.  I don't want to have just great insight.  I want to live it.  Reasoning things out does not help me in the least.  Looking up stuff is only temporary.  Fighting it makes it worse.  I would like to break the cycle of OCD, which seems impossible to do.  God, help me do what I think is impossible.