Wednesday, September 16, 2015
I was sad today, but all is well.
Today, I have finally learned about myself. I have the insight but not the wisdom. I needed to know what is really wrong with me. I was so sad today because of the thoughts I had. I couldn't just ignore them as they were hard to ignore. With a little prayer, my frown became a smile. I kept busy, so they went away. I realize now that they are not true and the chances are they won't come true. They are exaggerations in real life and that I have nothing to worry about. They were more personal to me than the infidelity thoughts. I never cheated, but I have had my feelings hurt, and I get obsessed about race. I hate having these obsessions but I finally realize that with a bit of mindfulness, prayer, and being busy, I will be okay.