There are times when I want to be brave but I have difficulty. Facing my fears and anxieties is quite hard. I have grown tired of the fear and the anxiety-avoiding avoidance. Things will happen in the world. There is nothing I can do about it. It is like finding a spider or a roach on a coffee table or a video. I am cautious but it still makes me fearful. No spider or roach has really done anything to me yet they scare the crap out of me. I even see fake ones everywhere. I guess it is like those thoughts that I tend to have. I realize that trying to be certain of things can either do one or two things: it can cause me to gain more insight and give me the courage to face my fears or feed my thoughts some more. With spiders and roaches, all I have to do is to get rid of them. I wonder how to get rid of those thoughts? I guess I have to be proactive and keep fighting.