Managing my thoughts

The sobering news has not been lost on me.  I will feel better, if I didn't have this cold.  I guess keeping busy and making a busy schedule does not work.  However I have to learn to manage my goals, for they are in the back of my mind.  If they are still in the back of my mind, then I have not fully managed it.  I have not "forgotten" it.  I have to keep busy and also learn to face my fears.  I have to see the episodes that scare me. I have to know if I am not going crazy.  I am glad to say that I am doing a better job managing my thoughts but managing those thoughts can be crazy at times.  Thoughts arriving suddenly are the most annoying part. I often wish that these thoughts would just go away and never come back.  That would be a great day for me to have.  I would like a day without having obsessive thoughts.