"Sunday Morning Rapture" is a film that I would recommend. I thought about that film. It did have an effect on me. It was a profound effect. I refuse to give myself all credit, but this morning, I have come to realize that I take way too much stock in what I watch, what I eat, or how I should feel. They are important, but there are things that are more important and matters that are more weightier. I have come to see that there are people who do wrong or bad things, but that does not mean that they are unforgivable or what they did cannot be forgiven. I need to keep that in mind when another thought comes along. I have spent so long being afraid. I don't always see that we are all being watched. With God, we have no privacy. It is as if He is looking at us through a lens, His lens. I have to also keep in mind that this world is temporary and that we all will be judged, as I am also not immune. I know OCD is a condition but I still have to take responsibility for how I live my life. I don't want to be afraid or anxious or shy anymore. I want to change and go outside. I want to do new things and meet new people. I have been cooped up for too long.