Saturday, July 18, 2015
I don't doubt that I am saved. I am glad. My hope is that it stays that way. I go to some websites as a compulsion. I am beginning to hate the compulsions but to a point. It does answer my questions that I so seek. However, how do I know if they are telling me the entire truth? I have been spending a lot of my day and night doing research assurance on things such as cheating and entertainment. It seems so silly to others. However, it isn't so silly to me. Maybe I need to realize that it is a struggle. I also have to quit this cold turkey but that is not going to work. However, if I can come so far with dealing with the thoughts, then I realize that I can do this.