I recall saying that life is about making choices. Well I did make a similar point to that. I realize that it doesn't even matter why I have these thoughts. It is about what to do with them since all of us have thoughts. They will come. Some thoughts pass but others stay like unwelcome guests. I just want for the unwelcome guests to leave. Wishing them and wanting them to leave won't help. Standing up and taking action will. That is something that requires even a little bit of ingenuity. How do I know this? I live this practically everyday. I just hate that I just now thought about this. What is so bad is that those thoughts are bullies that just keep pouncing on a person. That is why fighting back is so important. It is also in how one fights back that is vital to taking back one's home and one's life and one's safety Those are among the things that I have learned over the past few years. I am doing better but I realize that the war is not over.