I have finally realized that I have gone knee deep into my obsession. I have pretended that he was my husband and that we had children together. We also divorced because I hurt him. I remarried later on only to hurt the new husband. When I cam by to see him, he wasn't thrilled with me. But after I said something, he decided to hug me anyways. I was in tears and I now know I was forgiven.
All was well until the day he died. One day I saw a red bird in the window. I was crying because I missed him. He was there for me and he wiped my tears. By then I finally realized that I needed to move on. I realize that I need to let go. It was not dream. It seemed real and I have decided to confess this to anyone in reality. I guess that if I were to confess, then it would be over. That is why I cry over him I guess. I really think that I have lost my mind. I guess it is the OCD. I hope it is. Maybe I need to tell the truth, but I won't lie. Should I just keep my mouth shut?
All was well until the day he died. One day I saw a red bird in the window. I was crying because I missed him. He was there for me and he wiped my tears. By then I finally realized that I needed to move on. I realize that I need to let go. It was not dream. It seemed real and I have decided to confess this to anyone in reality. I guess that if I were to confess, then it would be over. That is why I cry over him I guess. I really think that I have lost my mind. I guess it is the OCD. I hope it is. Maybe I need to tell the truth, but I won't lie. Should I just keep my mouth shut?
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