My mind has become so much clearer now. I had a crush or obsession over famous celebrities living or dead. Sage Stallone, who was the one I was afraid of telling about was the one I was obsessed with. I spent a lot time obsessing over him. He was handsome and a good actor. Sadly he passed away nearly four years ago. I will never get to meet Sage. I have no idea if I were meeting a nice person or if he were a jerk. I am glad to be writing this because I feel so free. My minded tended to loop. I realize now that I can accept the fact that I have a crush on him. I wonder if I were crazy for having a crush on a man who has passed away. What is so sobering is that I have seen pictures of his grave. It is sobering and sad to watch. He had very sad eyes which was quite telling. I couldn't help but feel sorry for him. Sadly, he is gone.