I cannot believe it has three days since my last entry. Oh well, that is okay. I feel so so. I have been feeling that for the past three days now. I am scared that the OCD will get worse. I feel like I have gotten worse. I have spent much of the recent past engaging in compulsions that are bothersome. Maybe they aren't as bothersome as they should be. How do or should I engage in mindfulness? I have to see that fiction is just that, fiction. It never happened. Maybe, Oh yes, I thought I had a problem. Had a problem. I realize that I have to see the thought for what it is, a thought. I can either see it as negative or I can just see it as a "positive" and just laugh it off. I wish I could do that, but I realize that it is hard-very very hard. It is quite difficult. OCD has done a great job of taking over every area of my life, including the most mundane, like watching tv and such. The question is, what is acceptance and how do I truly accept these thoughts do I have?