Wednesday, January 27, 2016

It has been three days, yikes.

I cannot believe it has three days since my last entry.  Oh well, that is okay.  I feel so so.  I have been feeling that for the past three days now.  I am scared that the OCD will get worse.  I feel like I have gotten worse.  I have spent much of the recent past engaging in compulsions that are bothersome. Maybe they aren't as bothersome as they should be.  How do or should I engage in mindfulness? I have to see that fiction is just that, fiction.  It never happened.  Maybe, Oh yes, I thought I had a problem.  Had a problem.  I realize that I have to see the thought for what it is, a thought. I can either see it as negative or I can just see it as a "positive" and just laugh it off.  I wish I could do that, but I realize that it is hard-very very hard.  It is quite difficult.  OCD has done a great job of taking over every area of my life, including the most mundane, like watching tv and such.  The question is, what is acceptance and how do I truly accept these thoughts do I have?

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