I often wondered ever since I was a kid what others saw in me. What was most important is what I saw in myself. How come is it that I can only see myself as a reflection? Why do I have only a reflection that I may not not trust? To me, not being able to see myself without a reflection is quite scary. The world is an untrustworthy place so when if someone is telling me something false about me. What if I am really a blonde yet the mirror sees a brunette. I would like to be able to see my nose and my mouth without the use of a mirror for instance. Would I also be able to trust myself? I don't know if it is OCD, but I just cannot get over this. I often concentrate on that very "issue". If I were to see a picture of myself, how would I know if it is really me. It may actually be someone else. The joke may actually be on me.