There are times like this when I see things clearly. My thoughts that are obsessive no longer scare me. The issue is that I would like to happen everyday. I was so afraid one minute and another minute nothing scares me. I am doing okay today and I guess that is why. Ironically, I am thinking and pondering over losing weight yet I am so busy eating the unhealthiest of foods. That is I guess how it goes...for now. Procrastination is not the key to losing weight, but to gain weight. Well, that is what happens. I have no resolution, nor do I have a plan. The resolutions and the plans have limited me to the point where I have questioned why I have allowed myself to get to my size. Losing weight is not only a struggle but a journey full of questions, fears, and doubts. At least this journey will keep me busy.