Sunday, December 6, 2015

Reflection on the thoughts

1. Are they meaningful?
2. Will they matter in the near future?
3. Are they of any value?
4. How will they affect me on a personal level?

The truth is, I already know the answers.  They have no meaning, they are not real, or of no value. Therefore, they really don't have an effect on a personal level because it is not my story.  Now I need to further ask myself these questions:

1. Do they honor God?
2. Do they honor me?
3. Can they really hurt me?
4. Why do I have these thoughts?
5. What are my fears and how to face them?
6. What are really the most important things to me?


The most important things to me are faith and family.  Those are things that I need to focus on. Those are thoughts that last to me.  I am to have thoughts and think on those thoughts as God says to do. However, I have not always done so.  I do not feel okay about this.  The content bothers me, but I realize it is not about me or about my life.  In fact, my life is quite simple.  I am currently not in a relationship.  I have never cheated nor have I ever been cheated on.  I guess that is why I have these thoughts other than the fact that OCD will latch on to anything.   For me, it was gossip about cheating and that is what the OCD latches on to.  Well, that is what I have been fighting against for years.  On the other hand, it has taught me much about myself even though they don't affect me personally. To answer the above questions, there are no meaning or value to these thoughts since they are not honorable.  They don't honor God but they have never harmed me.  The hardest part is to face them head on.  Fear is false evidence appearing real.  Sounds a lot like my obsessive thoughts.




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