I have to redefine my life and my goals. I realize that I need to get out more. My life has been blah. I have no real friend to talk to unless I am online. My social life is almost nil. I realize that I feel guilt about a lot of things. I would like to just go to the beach or go to the movies. I have been living in the past I guess. I haven't had a "life" in over a decade, so I don't know where to begin. I wonder if a social life and getting out would help me with the OCD. Going out shopping for anytime of the year, much less for the holidays, do. I look forward to Thursday. I realize that I am thankful for much: a family who loves me, a place to lay my head, and at least I get to talk to online. I have, however, Facebook friends, but it isn't the same as real friends. That is something I would like to have: a true friend. I love to hang out and go shopping, at least try to socialize with others, and go to sporting events. Those are just a few things I would love to do, but I also need to know how to socialize with others who also have OCD. That would be of great help. Anything would be of great help. I finally realize that I have little to complain about, but I realize that having OCD has helped me get closer to the Lord. That is one thing that I must keep in mind or else I would lose my mind. That is the worst part of having OCD. I fear that I would go crazy. I have things that I would love to overcome. I need help in dealing with these issues. Today, I am glad that I have taken the time to re-evaluate my life.