Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Refining and re-evaluating my life

I have to redefine my life and my goals.  I realize that I need to get out more.  My life has been blah. I have no real friend to talk to unless I am online.  My social life is almost nil.  I realize that I feel guilt about a lot of things.  I would like to just go to the beach or go to the movies.  I have been living in the past I guess.  I haven't had a "life" in over a decade, so I don't know where to begin.  I wonder if a social life and getting out would help me with the OCD.  Going out shopping for anytime of the year, much less for the holidays, do.  I look forward to Thursday.  I realize that I am thankful for much: a family who loves me, a place to lay my head, and at least I get to talk to online.  I have, however, Facebook friends, but it isn't the same as real friends.  That is something I would like to have: a true friend.  I love to hang out and go shopping, at least try to socialize with others, and go to sporting events.  Those are just a few things I would love to do, but I also need to know how to socialize with others who also have OCD.  That would be of great help.  Anything would be of great help.  I finally realize that I have little to complain about, but I realize that having OCD has helped me get closer to the Lord.  That is one thing that I must keep in mind or else I would lose my mind.  That is the worst part of having OCD.  I fear that I would go crazy.  I have things that I would love to overcome.  I need help in dealing with these issues.  Today, I am glad that I have taken the time to re-evaluate my life.

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