I am here to write that I have been dealing with images for a long time. They have been about sex and rape for a while now. Those images have been scaring me for years. I realize that that is part of the OCD. The thoughts that have been scaring me for years. A woman getting caught in the act have been scary thoughts that I cannot see on television and in the movies. Why do women cheat? How can she do that? I think that it is disgusting that she would do that. I feel fear towards her and for the other guy. What will the husband do about it? What is wrong with me; why should I care? How do I let those images pass? They are difficult to pass unlike the thoughts that I cannot see I have? I hate having these thoughts and these images in my mind. I can't take those thoughts and those images anymore. I get anxious over those thoughts and images; they aren't there often, but I have avoided or tried to avoid everything that deals with those thoughts and images. Avoidance is something that I have "partaken" for years and I am getting tired of that. I just don't know how to get rid of these thoughts and images. They are a source of frustration to me.
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