I "love" him. I have bidden adieu, but I cannot really let go. I have tried. However, I didn't try today. I cried about him, and I worry about him. What if he went to another place? I wonder where he is. What happened to him? Having an obsession about a guy who has died is very weird. I know this because if I were to take a few steps back then I would think that I am going crazy. I was forgiven. I messed up today because I was thinking about him. I love his looks, his voice, and his seeming good personality. I have come to accept my crush or obsession of him. I have the man so attractive that I had difficulty letting him go. Goodbye, young man, You are greatly missed. You are greatly loved.