I hope that I am the type of person who is known for being loyal. Loyalty is such a great quality to have. I have never betrayed anyone. I am not trying to hurt anyone. However, I have questioned whether or not I know how to be a true friend. Those are questions that I have had and I also wonder if I had obsessive thoughts about that. I guess that OCD latches on to anything. I have had obsessive thoughts about many things, and many people. Crushes can turn into obsessions. I realize that the "cure" to them is acceptance. It is okay to have positive feeling about someone. I guess it is even okay to have an innocent crush on someone. Then there is the normal crush that has become an obsession. Unfortunately those are hard to break. I am a brave person to unleash about this. It was a source of shame and something that I am not proud of. I have done things I am not proud of. But hopefully that I will all be in the past as I look forward to the future.