Thursday, June 18, 2015
(Having OCD sucks) From an old entry on another blog
Having OCD sucks. It seems that at times I take pleasure in those thoughts because it calms my mind down and it answers those questions that I ask. Maybe it is about asking for reassurance which is what I have done often. I have been diagnosed as having OCD as late as 2010. I felt relieved but it was one in a set of problems that I have. My problems are about moral and religious issues. I sometimes wonder if God really saved me or if I am lost. Moral issues include infidelity and just doing the right thing. I always have these questions in my head that in my mind require an answer. I hate uncertainty and I just can't take it. I wish I never had it and I felt very lonely because I don't have all of the answers and I don't know anyone personally who has the same problem.