Friday, June 5, 2015
Down in the dumps for now.
I am down but not out, thus I am kidding. I had thoughts yesterday about infidelity. They were the same fears and cares that scare me. Why do they scare me so much? I guess I will never know. I still have issues with avoidance, even as the thoughts (begin) to fade. I am afraid that that fear is my problem. It will be around the corner. I don't allow myself to be free. I am not free from this, but will I ever be? Nothing seems to be manageable at the moment. It isn't driving me crazy or anything like that; it just is. Nothing less. Nothing more.