I'm having the realization that for now, I am not free of the obsessions and the compulsions. I realize that that is how I deal with things that determine how bothersome they are. In short, my reaction to the thoughts play a role. I had to realize that today. I cannot react to just any thought or any fear. I realized that whatever is ailing me, I have to see that I have to confess and to be honest. I am okay for now, because I am embracing the thoughts. I no longer have most of the same thoughts that I do anymore.