Sunday, April 26, 2015
Repost from 4/25/15
I still have to deal with the compulsions and looking up information. I wish I could just stop it and not give in. I mind the compulsions even less, though. I will always thoughts and thoughts do come (which felt so discouraging at times). The reality is, what discouraged me is really what encouraged me. I have thoughts and I have learned to count my blessings. I am still anxious about things but even that has become more manageable. I would love to live at least a day where I can be "free" from the daily cares, anxieties, and obsessive thoughts. I would also like to cherish these thoughts by accepting them and by embracing them. That is my goal.