Monday, May 25, 2015
I have done some checking yesterday which usually makes me feel bad because I feel weak. It is a compulsion of mine or hopefully next time I will say "was a compulsion of mine". I am not a fan of having OCD, nor am I a fan of having compulsions. There are certain words which would prompt a certain thought or chain of thoughts and they bother me sometimes. There are certain images which would also prompt a thought or a series of thoughts. The good thing is that they are not as scary as they once were. However, it would be nice if I didn't have these thoughts, have no thoughts that would come to mind because of what I see or here, or if I for 24 hours at least don't look at a television show. That would be nice. One day, it will no longer be a dream.