For the past couple of days or so, I haven't taken care of myself. Thus, I am feeling the effects. I have gained some weight over the years and I have had difficulty keeping the weight off. I will not make any excuses. I will just be truthful. I need to get out more. I am now concerned about my psyche and my health tonight. I want to know that I can overcome it. I would like to obtain the skills needed to get healthy, be healthy, and stay healthy. I am the problem, but how do I fix things? Most of all, how do I fix me? I feel like sometimes I have a lot of fixing that I need to do. I realize that I am and should be a work in progress. Sometimes I wonder if everything I do is a compulsion. I now no longer wish or wonder if I were to be obsessive about dolls or some other mundane topic. I am always afraid and anxious. I am someone who know that I need to change. I just am clueless as to go out about it. Maybe it is time to let that kind of thinking go. It has done me no good. It is time I do something for me for a change.