11/8 I know that God is always with me. – Isaiah 41:10
11/9 With my heart open to God's renewing love, I accept my healing now.
11/10 Today, I abandon my old habits and take up new, more positive ones.
11/11 I am preparing myself for Jesus' return.
11/12 I can stand on my own two feet and move forward with my life.
11/13 I eat slowly and stop eating the moment I feel full.
11/14 I am a gift from God, not only for one season, but for the entire year.
It is about frustration becoming an obsession almost. It could have
easily destroyed what I have worked for when it came to my weight.
Frustration is something that one should not have to deal with. It is
serious and I am serious. Being too frustrated has not been kind to me
and I doubt it will be kind to anyone else.
11/9 Turning things over to God can very well be difficult. I am so used to
want to fix things for myself because oftentimes I feel so powerless.
How ironic is that? It is true, though. Powerless is a feeling or is
it purely based on reality? I have learned that power is like a road.
Either you can have power or choose to take your power back or actually
be and/or remain powerless. Life is like a road sometimes because life
is a journey of choices.
I have failed to see that sometimes and tend to do things first then
think of the consequences later. That is not a good way to live. In my
case, it is because of a lack of exhibiting self-control. Self-control
is one of the fruits of the Spirit and there is no law. I believe that
there is no law because it about living for God. How can a person
truly live for God without at least a modicum of self-control? One who
lacks self-control cannot be a good witness for God.
I didn't realize was that I needed God. It was around 1:00 or so that
afternoon and I went up to a friend's room. I knew that she was a
born-again Christian and I started talking to her about all of my
problems. I met two other girls, one of them was a freshmen at that
time. I literally cried a river and poured out my heart. I was a
lonely young woman. I knew it. Then she asked me if I believe that
Jesus died for me and that if I believed that Jesus rose on the third
day. I told her that I did. Then she mentioned the word "friends". It
clicked. That was all I remember from that question. However, I have
told her that I will get saved later on that I wanted to go somewhere.
Her warning was to me that tomorrow was promised to no one. These were
not her exact words, but that is what she meant. I am so glad that I
did not hesitate. I prayed with her to receive Jesus as my Lord and
Savior. I saw a mental picture of cherub-like angels on a blue
background. It was a mental painting almost. Everything seemed
different. Things were brighter. One of the girls remarked that I even
looked different. God took my pain away. He had started me on a new
journey. And for that I praise God. Life is better. I still have my
share of problems, but all Christians have their share of problems.
Christians will be persecuted for their faith. I went from barely
reading the Bible from reading and studying the Bible daily. I prayed
mostly in need, but I pray daily. I have changed. Within a year from
that day, I transferred to a new school and graduated two years later. I
have learned how to handle my problems better. Over time, I have grown
to depend on God daily. I have become interested in different things.
I have become a different person. I have become wiser, and I thank God
11/11 I would today like to wish a Happy Veterans' Day to all of those who
have served our country. So many of them gave of their lives and they
should be greatly appreciated. However, despite the fact that they
should be thanked and that they should have a day set aside for them,
everyday should be a day when we thank our veterans. They have fought
valiantly and I, for one, will not forget their service to this country.
11/12 I love giving gifts. Christmas is a great time of the year, but I think
that I, like many in the United States, underrate Thanksgiving. We as
Americans have much to thankful for. Granted, we have a lot of
problems, but most of us don't go to bed hungry. Many people in other
countries do. I am reminded of them quite often and I am not just
thankful, but I am grateful that there are people who show love to those
who are in need. I am not always good at expressing myself, but we as
believers are to love and serve those in need, not just because it is
the right thing to do and that we are supposed to serve. We are to love
those we serve, and that is the reason we do the right thing. We love
our fellow man, woman, and child.
11/13 RIP, Noah Gerald...I miss you, dad.
11/14 I know that I was supposed to write about Christmas, but I am glad that
it turned to something else. Sure I am talking about Christmas and I
even wrote a video about it. So ironically all of this does tie
together. For that, I am thankful that God has given me so much insight
into life that I didn't know that I had.
My Food and Diet Blog Entries
11/8 I have given total and complete control over to the Lord. I was so
frustrated that it left me eating more. I have binged for the past few
days and I am proud of it. I needed to take inventory of my life. And I
also needed to take inventory over my health. I admit that I am not in
the best health. I gained weight which is causing me worry. That is
not a good thing. I just couldn't take it anymore. So I prayed about
it. I needed wisdom and I believe that my prayer will be answered.
11/9 I did pretty well today. I do realize, however, that eating smaller
portions would be beneficial for me. Application of certain diet
principles or rules would be a great help to me. Planning in advance
would also be of great help to me as well. Lacking in self-control is
an issue for me. How do I learn to exhibit self-control when it comes
to my eating habits so that it doesn't become a vicious cycle?
11/10 I have to admit that I ate a lot of unhealthy foods. I do tend to eat a
lot of fried foods. I believe that eating unhealthy foods do no good
for my health. I am glad that I am under the calorie limit. I don't
however feel guilty about what I ate.
11/11 I ate some food today that was pretty healthy. I admit that I do need
to eat more fruits and vegetables. I also need to read up my blog
entries so that I could learn about myself and eat healthier and lose
weight. I am stressed out, which is not good for me.
11/12 I have had enough of binging and overeating! I need help. I need, and
want to lose weight. It is one of my greatest desires. The reasons are
for health and for overall well-being. I am doing this for myself.
Right now, I plan to consume just 1400 calories starting tomorrow. I
need to be consistent with this. I just want to lose weight. I am
trying too hard and failing miserably. I want to start all over, but I
rather just start anew.
11/13 I am now consuming 1400 calories per day, for now. I realize that it is
normal for people to change the calorie amounts per day. I don't eat
as well as I should. I need, want, and desire to lose weight. I have
gained some weight from binging. I have also gotten sick. I am
learning to eat in smaller portions. Eating that many calories is
actually a lot less stressful than I thought, even though I admit that
it is a challenge. It will require a lot of doing what is hard. I feel
pretty good, but I realize that this is a daily thing, not a wedding
11/14 I have noticed that the less I eat, the more stressful I am. I do have
an urge to eat much or rather more than I desire to eat. For the time
being, I am comfortable with eating a 1400 calorie diet. It hasn't been
much of a struggle so far. In fact, food doesn't consume my every
thought. I guess it is because of my food intake. I have been wiser in
my food choices as a result. I don't have any headaches or anything
like that. In fact I feel great. I can breathe a little easier.