Sunday, May 1, 2016

Repeating what I listen to

 "Hella Good" by No Doubt

I have a tendency to play a song for a while.  Sometimes I promise myself that I will play something else only to play the same song over and over again.  I wonder if that is obsessive or just normal.  Anyways, this is one of many songs that I love listening to that keeps me mindful.  I need to be more conscious of my surroundings.  I know that my thoughts are not based on my reality, but they are real.  They seem real at the time because they exist.  I will always have thoughts and I have to accept the fact that I may always have these thoughts as scary as that may sound.  I don't like it, but I have to learn to deal with it.  If I could get over many obsessions that I have had then I could deal with this large topic of infidelity.  It is as if I have allowed it to get bigger and bigger and more complicated.  However, having OCD has taught me to appreciate God and myself.  I have become a stronger person as a result.  I never thought that would happen.  I believe that honesty is truly the best policy.  I have come to realize that being honest is a whole lot better than living in deception.  I am feeling so much better now.

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