Well, here I come. Each day I am beginning to turn around. I am becoming more successful in beating this disorder. Keeping busy and reading has been of great help to me. I have been reading up books about things that really matter to me. There are things that do scare me but I think that finally I can deal with it. No matter what the subject matter is, I can finally ignore those thoughts. I can deal with it. I know that my wish of at least a day without those thoughts coming will finally come true.