I could have shared a piece of myself yesterday, but I have decided to skip it for a day. How do I feel about this? I realize that I should have, but sometimes, a change is quite good. Right now, I am watching a movie that has a man whose wife has died. Any sort of word like wife, wives, marriage, philandering, and murder bother me. Those are words that bother me. I realize that even on television most wives are faithful, but it is hard to get the ones who cheat out of my mind. Right now I am worried. Maybe I should stop writing this because it is making me anxious. Right now I am having this image of a woman being caught cheating my her husband and. I also get angry about this. Why don't I get angry when a married man does this? Something is wrong with me. I feel like a total hypocrite, but my thoughts need to be exposed. I need to overcome this fully. I want nothing more than to feel better.