I have come to realize that I do have OCD. It is so hard for me to cope at times. Sometimes I am not so sure if it is the OCD, the enemy lying to me, or if the Lord is calling me, but I have no idea. I am in fear right now. More than anything, I want to know who I truly am in Jesus Christ. I know that Jesus is the only one who can save. My biggest fear is that I will be left behind. How can I be a witness to others about a God who I actually might not even know? It is a scary thought. That is all I can say for now.