Friday, March 17, 2017

Recap of this past week

A change in me
I am thankful to God that I have become more compassionate, understanding, and less selfish.  Being selfish, compassionate, and understanding means having more wisdom.  It means there is less of oneself as a fleshly being, for we are all fallible beings.  There is more of God.  I guess that there is a daily battle between spiritual and the natural.  It is a hard battle to fight.  I believe that it means that because the Holy Spirit is a part of creation and Jesus spoke of Him, who never speaks of Himself, then the Creation is greater than Satan because the Spirit indwells in us.  With time comes more wisdom.  I am getting better, but I have a long way to go.  It has been a struggle, but the struggle is more than worth it.

How Would I look with burgundy hair?

I am a person with curly hair, dark skin, and naturally black hair.  I wonder how I would look with burgundy hair.  I would like to know this.  I just feel like I needed a change.  I have thought about this for a while now.  I have wondered that what were to happen if I were to have a tongue ring or a nose ring.  I have just wanted to but didn't have the courage to, experiment.  Right now, having burgundy hair is just a way to experiment.  It isn't a radical experiment, but I believe that I could pull it off.

Exercise and the flawed mindset
I didn't like what I saw.  All I saw was a fat body filled with limitations.  I have an all-or-nothing mindset that needs to change.  I just want to be able to wear clothes that are much smaller and have confidence in myself.  I know that my thinking needs to change, but I didn't realize how bad things really are.  I often get scared to eat breakfast yet I always have a large lunch and a regular sized dinner.  However, I don't always spend days eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner with a few snacks a day.  I just wish I could.  Exercise is the same way.  I do see my body as having flaws and limitations. I feel like I am broken apart with all of the issues that I have.  It is not a good feeling to have.

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