I am as insecure as anybody right now. I may feel or seem more insecure than ever tonight. Despite nothing going right so far, everything it seems is going wrong. I am not confident that things will change the way they are. Hopefully I am wrong. All I see is someone who is quite lazy and insecure. Change is hard to come by. How do I become more secure and more confident in my abilities? Have I even gotten lazy in what I feel I need to do? I have little idea how to get out of the funk I have been in lately. I have a tired mind. It as if I am tired and nearly down in the dumps as of late. I could not sleep at times, yet I was tired. I am doing better, but the insecurity hasn't left. It is so hard not just feeling insecure, but actually being insecure is even harder. I want to accomplish goals yet I realize that I have no idea how to go about accomplishing my goals. I seem to go through the motions and I just cannot take it anymore.