Being and feeling insecure

I am as insecure as anybody right now.  I may feel or seem more insecure than ever tonight.  Despite nothing going right so far, everything it seems is going wrong.  I am not confident that things will change the way they are.  Hopefully I am wrong.  All I see is someone who is quite lazy and insecure. Change is hard to come by.  How do I become more secure and more confident in my abilities? Have I even gotten lazy in what I feel I need to do?  I have little idea how to get out of the funk I have been in lately.  I have a tired mind.  It as if I am tired and nearly down in the dumps as of late.  I could not sleep at times, yet I was tired.  I am doing better, but the insecurity hasn't left.  It is so hard not just feeling insecure, but actually being insecure is even harder.  I want to accomplish goals yet I realize that I have no idea how to go about accomplishing my goals.  I seem to go through the motions and I just cannot take it anymore.