Thursday, March 6, 2014

2/28-3/6 Homework Assignment

Affirmations
2/28  I can dance my way to good health.
3/1 Life is fun and rewarding.
3/2 I am having so much fun in life.
3/3 Each and every day, my circumstances are improving
3/4 Music makes me feel alive.
3/5 I believe in You, Lord.
3/6 I am making positive choices in my life.

Musings
2/28 Dancing and dance music are absolutely fun.  I was listening to this song from a while back and sometimes I forget how good music sounds from a vehicle.  Ironically I don't feel that way about country music coming from the radio.  I rather watch a country music video or listen to a live performance.  I just find music and this song in particular, fascinating.  I just realized that I don't usually describe songs as fascinating but I wasn't sure what else to write in particular.  This is a song that I would recommend for exercise.
3/1 I am not sure where to begin here, but I have seen both men and women, and children doing this dance. Twerking is like sexuality, where one has to show restraint. In other words, there is a time and place for everything. It is one thing to twerk at a club with other 20-somethings, but to do the same dance in front of your children, on a graveyard, and in a church would make it sinful in my opinion because it is so disrespectful. I equate it to sex because sex in itself is not sinful and neither is dancing, including twerking.

3/2  I guess having "the look" has changed somewhat.  Correct me if I'm wrong, but I wonder if a Dusty Rhodes would even have a job in today's WWE, much less be a main-eventer for instance.  I guess that is just an opinion of mine.  My opinions are all that I have.  I am just an armchair quarterback.  That's all.
3/3 Song of the day: Shine on us by Avalon
3/4 I find myself watching movies from the last few decades and wondering about the quality of them.  I watched the first two Iron Man movies and they were fun, but will they hold up against the Rocky or Godfather movies?  I guess only time will tell and only if they would ever be compared since the Iron Man movies are so recent compared to the Rocky and Godfather movies.  Plus there is this thing about criticism of different genres, so I don't see any of the Iron Man movies in any Oscar category unlike Rocky or Godfather 2.  I am no critic but just an average moviegoer who like what she likes.
3/5 Yes, I am overweight, but I am also an over eater.  I have my trigger foods that I have no business buying from the store.  It is hard to control myself whenever I eat.
3/6 Man, I just love the "Expendables"...sadly I haven't seen the second one yet.

Exercise blog entries
2/28 Unfortunately, I do have a cold.  Fortunately I feel better.  I am in a nice warm house "recuperating".  I believe that I will be okay.  I actually did some exercise, or rather moving today.  I guess pushing a cart would count as exercise.  It was for about an hour.
3/1 I did do some dancing but I wouldn't count is as strenuous.  I am not a good dancer however.  Maybe I don't know my own talent.  There is nothing like moving a muscle.  There are so many benefits to exercise.  I just feel so much better since I woke up.  I still have a cold and I would like to say that it is getting better.  However, there is nothing like having a stuffy nose.  There is nothing like being ill to put things in perspective.
3/2 I actually did some exercise on this somber day.  I was very ill since I could not breathe well for the most part during my long long nap.  I do feel pretty good however.  I am doing okay despite my cold.
3/3 I wonder what does constitute exercise.  Does walking constitute exercise?  What type of walking and when?  Do I really even exercise?  Am I still a beginner?  If I am not really exercising, then what I am afraid of?  Is walking in the backyard exercise?  How about walking around the house?  What would typify a slow walk; would it depend on speed or distance?  These are questions that I have to ask and decide for myself if it is exercise.  I am just wondering.
3/4  Moving a muscle is something that constitutes exercise?  It is the very definition of exercise.  Exercise is the movement of muscle that produces results.
3/5   On the other hand, I have other reasons to exercise or rather continue to exercise.  It does keep my mind off of things and maybe that is why exercise is so good to overcome this issue that I have.
3/6 I wonder if I exercise then I won't each as much.  Here is what I am trying to write: I eat less, then I exercise more.  If I eat healthier then I exercise more, then all will be well.  Simple as that, no?  Not if one has the issue that I have.

Food and diet blog entries
2/28 I went grocery shopping and needless to say, it felt great.  I learned not only to do something for me, but I realize that I can eat and shop healthy.  I realize that application of learned principles on a consistent basis is quite beneficial.  My frustrations have done nothing but overwhelm me and has caused nothing but weight gain.  I want and need to eat better than I do.  I would like to enjoy the benefits of healthy eating.  I have to keep in mind on a constant basis how to eat while having PCOS and having diabetes.  I felt like a failure years back.  Now it seems, I have to make up for lost time.
3/1 I realize how much grocery shopping I do, I still have to learn to eat healthier.  I am in a way ashamed.  I have an overeating problem, especially when it seems I am "hungry".  I eat out of control and I feel like a glutton.  I want, need, and desire to lose weight.  I need help.  I know I sound like a broken record, but when today's diet consist of fruits, no vegetables, 2 milks, and fried foods, something has got to change.
3/2 I wish I could just quit eating so much.  I believe that I have an addiction.  I need so much help, but I am frustrated and overwhelmed.  I don't know where to begin.  Today is one of my better days.  I seem to be hungry but not hungry.  I want, need, and desire to get myself together.  I ate mostly unhealthy foods in comparison to what I should be eating.  Maybe that is the problem.
3/3 I am trying to not overeat, which I did today.  I did not know what to do. I realize that my problem stemmed from anxiety, but also from other things, like a compulsive need to eat...almost.  I am not sure what my internal problems are.  I do eat too much.  I lack patience and self-control and that is a problem that I have.  Maybe my problem is a spiritual problem.  Who knows?  All I know is that I feel alone.
3/4 I have spent less time binge and have become more aware of what I overeat.  That is a good thing.  The downside is, is that I am still overeating.  I need help and I will not postpone this any longer.  I have even fewer points today than I have yesterday.  However, I realize that I have a long way to go.
3/5 I have an issue and it hasn't just been on my mind.  It is an issue that I struggle with daily.  It isn't really about my weight as much as it is about my overall health and well-being.
3/6 So I tried my best to eat well.  At least not eat too much over the limit.  I still have a lot of work to do.  I have to take it one day at a a time.  I will still seek help with the issue that I have.  I won't make any excuses. All I know is that I need help.  I believe that I will finally get the help I need.

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