I have yet to identify why I eat so much. As a matter of fact, I am ashamed of the fact that no matter how hard I try, I feel like a failure. I wait for something or someone to come along to help me. I have become weak and lazy as I approach midlife. I am scared that I will never lose the weight that I so wish to lose. I have no set goals and it has always been that way for years now. What ever problems that occurred in the past are still dogging me today. I haven't liked myself in years and my weight has been a reason why. I look at pictures and deep down I am envious. I wanted to look a certain way. I wanted to look like I did in high school. I am ashamed because I weight a whole lot more now than when I was in better health. I need help.