It will be a while before I am cured.

Today I have to learn that even those things that I don't avoid scare me.  The obsessive thoughts scare me.  I feel like sometimes running away from them.  I just don't have that strength or that power.  I need to face my fear.  I feel all alone sometimes.  Loneliness and having no one to relate to is very difficult.  Maybe if I could just explain my issues, then I would feel better.  I finally did to my mother, who has been very helpful.  I remember that day.  I will never forget it.  My eyes were beginning to open and much of the anxiety went away.  If only that continues to happen.