Fictional characters

I have had thoughts about a lot of things.  I feel like going crazy.  I am not, however, gone crazy.  I am going to write that I don't care about fictional characters.  They are figments are one's imagination, so why do I care?  I should treat it like something that one should take with a grain of salt.  However, it does matter.  I do care.  I want to know what is going on with the characters and their lives.  I want to know why this person would cheat, or get angry.  I want to be nosy and know all of those things, yet I look and read anyway.  On the other hand, it is frustrating and nerve-wracking at the same time.  I hate it but I derive pleasure from it. I hate avoidance and I want to live life.