What ails me

I'm having the realization that for now, I am not free of the obsessions and the compulsions.  I realize that that is how I deal with things that determine how bothersome they are.  In short, my reaction to the thoughts play a role.  I had to realize that today.  I cannot react to just any thought or any fear.  I realized that whatever is ailing me, I have to see that I have to confess and to be honest.  I am okay for now, because I am embracing the thoughts.  I no longer have most of the same thoughts that I do anymore.