Writing has been helpful

I have spent time in the past writing out examples of thoughts that I have been having.  It has been hard to read out those thoughts yet I have managed to keep them for future reference.  I realize that today I am not 100% better.  I have been having obsessive thoughts and suffer from scrupulosity for a number of years.  All I ever wanted was for my thoughts to weaken.  I am happy to say that my thoughts about MR and CO have weakened.  I wrote a rather vulgar story about MR and CO that has helped me to realize that I don't know them.  The chances of my knowing them are slim to none.  I will never know them as far as I know.  It is all vanity; therefore it doesn't matter.  I wonder what my stories would say about them.  What would they say about infidelity?  These stories and this paragraph is connected to what I have written last night.  I need to read up my thoughts and change my reaction to these thoughts and have a different opinion on these scenarios.  I need to move and know how to move forward.  If it means to be anxious and feel fear every once in a while, then so be it.