I spent my time walking this morning and during my walk, I prayed and ask God about having OCD. It isn't always easy having this disorder. For years I have been spending my time being anxious and giving in to my anxiety. I had to learn how to face it head on. Battling this condition by reasoning it out or saying "it doesn't matter" has never been of help. I finally realize that exposure to shows that bother me do not help me, but a talk to God does. A good cry also helps. I have had this issue most of my life and it seems that I have grown tired of it being manageable. I asked before to be healed. I still would like to be healed. After all, Jesus healed a woman with an issue of blood. She suffered many years with a condition doctors probably found a miracle to cure and expensive to treat. I can only imagine the pain and exhaustion she went through. Her cure was simple. She had faith. I had doubts and they were holding me back. It doesn't help that I have the "doubting disease". However, I had to realize that God forgives sin, yet I know that OCD is not a sin. I only wish it were, or else it would be as far as the east is to the west, so has Got forgiven me and the OCD will be more than manageable. Sometimes I hope that the word manageable becomes a thing of the past.
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