Thursday, November 7, 2013

11/1/13-11/7/13

11/1-11/7 Affirmations
11/7 Affirmation: I have prayed for my loved ones because I believe that we are all valuable.
11/6 Affirmation: I am an overcomer who can face any challenge.
11/5 Affirmation: I acknowledge my own self-worth; my confidence is soaring.
11/4 Affirmation: I am blessed with an incredible family and wonderful friends.
11/3 Affirmation: I am worthy of being cherished.
11/2 Affirmation: I am grateful.
11/1 Affirmation: God is the One who has given me such endless talents.


11/1-11/7 Musings
11/7 I don't think that two gay people wanting to get married and having the right to get married spells the end of Western Civilization as we know it. Shouldn't we as straight people take the motes out of our own eyes? Shouldn't we do a better job on how we ourselves view marriage before we judge two gay people who are willing to get married?
11/6 I just feel that way because holidays are on my mind.  There is nothing like having the holiday season on my mind.  It is a good feeling to have.  I am grateful for that.  I am mindful that many have lost their loved ones or their families.  I am one of those people.  I lost my father two weeks before Thanksgiving and it was hard.
11/5 Ironically, I want to lose weight, but for myself.  I don't fit any stereotypes of fat people at all, but the world have their views, but God has His, and for that, I am thankful.  The world isn't a friend to any of us so why conform to it?  I wish to continue to conform to God's standard of beauty and about health.  The epidemic against obesity should be about fitness, health, and overall well-being, no matter if one is overweight or not, obese or skinny.  I can't help but wonder if some people in the Church are like the world in that they too have a prejudice against being fat.  That is a shame if true.  It is up to the overweight person who wishes to lose weight to do so for themselves and for their health.  It should never be up to the government or anyone else.
11/4 I have put up music videos for the past few days because I feel like music is a great healer.  I am not sure what I should muse about today.  I felt like I have to muse about music.  I feel like being prayerful or just going back in time.  Things seem simpler, but are they really?  Well, there are few things like nostalgia.  I admit that sometimes with nostalgia comes a blindness to all of the bad times.  With all of the music, the movies, and the magical days, was the bad times.  I was bullied while I was in school, so not everything was so great.  Despite all of that, I do miss the "good old days".  However, what do I know about the "good old days"?  I am not an older woman.  Maybe age is just a number.  Maybe I am reading too much into the times and to the music of the times.  Right now, as I am typing this, maybe I am starting to feel old.
11/3 No matter who sings "The Prayer", it is a beautiful song.
11/2 I love TLC's songs. They help me to cope with a lot of things I am going through.
11/1 Zapp & Roger are just cool.


11/1-11/7 Food and Diet Blog posts
11/7 How do I do what is hard?  That is a question I have been trying to figure out.  Maybe it is best that I don't figure it out.I am not sure what exactly to fix tomorrow, but I realize that I cook and eat way too much food.  That is one way I can make it easier.  I can also store up some of the foods as leftovers instead of throwing them away.  That too will help.I guess that there are a lot of ways I can do to make life easier for me.  All I have to do is not allow any frustration to get to me.
11/6 My real problem is that I have not taken better care of myself.  I am ashamed of logging in my food and drink intake.  I eat too much processed and unhealthy foods in larger amounts than I should have.  I do this instead of eating in moderation.  There are quite a few things that I need to improve upon, but I didn't realize how hard it is to apply.  Applying myself is doing what is hard.
11/5 I need to do research on why I binge.  Maybe research is not the best word to use, but I have an issue with how I eat.  I need help.  I don't feel guilty about what I eat.  I need to do a better job of planning my meals.  The problem is, there is so much frustration I feel like giving up.  What is my problem?
11/4 I have given control over to the Lord.  I finally need to learn about my eating habits and set attainable goals.  My diet and exercise regimen are in need of being fixed.  How do I deal with calorie expenditure?  How do I deal with calorie intake when the total amount of calories is fewer than what I eat per day?  I have a lot of work to do.  I know that my caloric intake will have to decrease so that means that I will have to eat smaller portions.  After all, I have diabetes and eating in moderation is not just something I need to practice.  I wonder what foods are really diabetic friendly.  What do I leave out?  What and how much healthy foods do I consume?  Those are questions that I have to answer because with my food intake, I admit that I am not taking good care of myself.  I have to be honest about my food intake, even if it is hard to admit.
11/3 How do I overcome binging I have no idea.  I binged today.  I don't feel guilty about binging necessarily but I realize that it is not good for my health.  I feel good about eating food because there is something about the taste and texture of food.  However, I have to keep in mind that I am diabetic.
11/2 Every time I go the grocery store I end up hungry.  That is one of the big mistakes I make.  I have learned for myself never to do that.  So what did I do?  Eat like crazy.  Now I have no idea how much I truly ate, even with the journey entry.  Well, today was a lessen of learning.
11/1 Even though I ate more than 1800 calories today, I realize that I have not eaten the healthiest of foods.  I have a tendency to consume carbs and junk food.  It shows in my diary.  I need help with eating healthier.  I need to eat healthier.  I am just so happy that I ate what I ate however in terms of calories and carebs, however.

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