Why oh why

I am looking forward to losing more and more weight.  I am not obsessed by my weight.  I should based on how much I want to lose.  The truth is, I want to lose more than half of my body weight.  I look forward to exercising because my mind is in it.  I am motivated to lose weight.  I have never been happier.  I realize that being overwhelmed to lose weight was an easy thing, but that is why did I wait so long to actually carry it out?  Things were so bad that I had to close my exercise blog.  That was messed up.