Reflection of OCD and how it's affecting me

It has been become more annoying to "find out" and "do research".  That is my way of saying that I keep giving in to compulsions.  In short, I still ask for reassurance.  The thoughts are really out there, but they are really in my mind.  In other words, I know that the thoughts make no sense as far as who I am.  However, it doesn't make OCD any less worrisome.  I have to manage it.  I still look up things because of the avoidance. I now know that if it is not for the avoidance, then I wouldn't have to worry about the compulsions.  Why didn't think of that before?