Taking action

I wish that I could complement myself more often.  Over the years I feel like that I am lazy and that my weight was a reflection of my laziness.  That is not the case thankfully.  I sometimes admit that I have gotten lazy over the years but that is just some way of being down on myself.  I have been for a long time because of my obsessive thoughts.  Being so set like this for almost a decade can do that to a person.  I have yet to overcome it.  There are things that I like to do that I probably haven't done in years.  I have been shielded and bound to this computer.  Though I have no social life outside of this computer, I feel safe.  Isolation makes me safe.  Being sheltered makes me feel safe.  Safety can either be a good thing or a bad thing.  Isolation can either be a good thing or a bad thing.  Being sheltered can be a bad thing.  However, I have learned a lot and leaned a lot in these past few years. However, I would like to change that.  I often have questions because I have no real answers.  It is either that, or, I have had the answers all along and didn't know it.  I have taken no action until now, but there have always been roadblocks in my way.  I don't know how to remove those roadblocks. The more things have changed for me, the more they stay the same.  They don't have to be that way, and that requires doing the hard work.  Ask for help.  Hold myself accountable.  Take action.  It doesn't hurt to do those things.  It is a challenge sometimes, but then again, so is life.